I describe my ongoing lyrics writing projects. Where I get my ideas, how I match my words with other people's music, which little helpers I use...
I re-wrote the bridge:
though I hoped that I could find my place
and I hoped to find some meaning
though I hoped some day I could embrace
a proud future that was gleaming
Next comes the lift, so the sentence is sort of continued there:
when I'm tryin' to make out some sense
I find deception and pretence
I scrapped the idea to blend describing some general mood or rather a feeling of alienation with brooding over a personal relationship. It did'nt fit together too well.