it's so evil - I love it

Did you spot my "Sabrina"? I mean the song on SoundClick. I had written and recorded it in 2008. Yet, although I'm kind of resistant against feeling embarrassed, I never published it. Even in relation to my own pretty low standards the recording was a mess. I was off the beat (did't know about latency of soundcards then), and I'd forgotten to put in the drums and bass! I've always since wanted to re-record it. There is a "smoothened" version called "Sarah" that was IMO way off the mark. "Sabrina" was meant to be harsh and controversial, it's so evil, I love it! Here is the text:

when our eyes met I felt that something was quite wrong
you looked so very young and cute, and yet you were so strong
my mind was in a turmoil, and I cursed that very day
you said I need not worry 'cause love always finds a way

Sabrina, you took me by the hand
you said you'd lead me to another land
where our love could survive
where we'd not have to hide
you know how I feel:
if this land was real
I would follow you through the end

I tried to hide my feelings, but I fell into despair
surrendering to my longing I just knew I was not fair
but I yearned to be close to you, I could not keep away
I knew how very wrong things looked, I knew what they would say

Sabrina, you took me by the hand
you said you'd lead me to another land
where our love could survive
where we'd not have to hide
you know how I feel:
if this land was real
I would follow you through the end

will we find a way?
will we find a way out?
I want to wipe out that day
I want to resolve all doubt

Sabrina, you took me by the hand
you said you'd lead me to another land
where our love could survive
where we'd not have to hide
you know how I feel:
if this land was real
I would follow you through the end